growing up as a claustrophobic kid is never cool.
you are actually sometimes object of mockery among friends.
suddenly,i think i've become a very angsty/moody/stressed up
it suddenly became very disturbing and saddening for me that i'm a claustrophobic kid.
i still rmb when i was 7,i was brought to this playground in pasir ris park.
i went with my cousins and of course parents.
i was too young to be anywhere alone.duhh.
there was this thing called the "spider web" that you would have to climb and squeeze through and so on.
well,you get what i mean.
all my cousins could climb without any fear but i was still standing there putting my foot on the first rope.
i was most probably too young to understand at that time why i was so scared.
being the young kid that i was,i wanted to prove to everyone,i was just like one of them.
but i later started crying not even halfway through climbing.
i still had not found out what kinda fear i was going through.
and i heard words such as "chicken" when i left.
hmm.
at the age of 9,i was playing hide-and-seek with the neighbours.
my cousin told me to hide in the cupboard and so i did.
i realized my heart was pumping so fast and turning pale.
and another cousin realized i was in the cupboard.
i wanted to come out of the cupboard when game time was over but my cousin had been an idiot and had stood in front of the door and i couldnt come out.
i swear i thought i was gonna die because i was gasping for air and crying/shouting loudly
and my cousin had to shout "EEEYER.LOSER!"
my parents finally realized,i was just like my dad,claustrophobic.
recently,when i watched this movie,it had smth to do with this lady being stucked in an enclosed area.
i instantly switched off the tv because i could just feel the lady gasping for air.
it's scary.
all sorts of mockeries i've been through just because of claustrophobia.
but who cares,i cant hide it anymore and i wont hide it anymore.
hmm.